I hate it.
Screwing up-especially when I knew what I was supposed to right.
Like that time my dad forgot to turn off the oven and left the meatloaf inside.
It’s easy to tell someone, to get back right back up after they’ve fallen.
Sometimes, when I hear people tell me that, I scoff.
“That’s not going to make me feel better,” I say.
But what happens if the person who screwed up royally is you?
I wish that we could just forget- the past failures- and not let the guilt hang over us (me!)
You know when people say, “Ok, lets start out brand new- a clear slate” ?
That’s sweet. And sometimes it’s true. But most times, we just really can’t do that.
Because the consequences of our actions don’t just go away.
Like the meatloaf (more like a black, shriveled, piece of something that once resembled some sort of meat) won’t unburn itself, even if my mom will ever forgive dad for almost burning down the house.
But, even though people can’t just forget all the time, and consequences can’t just be wiped out,
I find it comforting that God can just forget.
Over and over and over again, we can see in the Bible, reminders of His faithfulness in spite our our unfaithfulness.
When we wholly confess that we have done wrong,
And are truly remorseful for it,
And ask for His forgiveness,
He puts it away and doesn’t bring it back, and dangle it in in front of you and make you feel like a loser.
“I–yes, I alone–will blot out your sins for my own sake and will never think of them again.” Is. 43:25
Now it’s one thing to say,
“I will speak of it no more”-
But it’s something completely different when you “think of it no more.”
(Who can do that?! I want to know!)
Then, maybe I can start to brush off the dust on me and slowly get up after all.
Because God isn’t high up on the clouds with an arsenal of lightning bolts, ready to aim at me.
He is willing and ready to forgive and forget
-And move on.
Even if I am not.
My parents were rushing to the E.R. since a loved one had an emergency.
My dad just doesn’t randomly leave the oven on when he leaves the house :))